I have to keep searching and someday I'll be in the place where I feel most like me.
Aspiring MODEL | VOCALIST | WRITER | DANCER
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People don’t realize that saying stuff to me like, “you’re only eating that, what are you trying to lose?” cuts deep. I understand I am thin, but you don’t know what I am going through right now. You don’t know how hard it is for me to face food sometimes. You don’t know how difficult it is for me to convince myself that it is okay to weigh 100 lbs and up. And lastly, you don’t realize how hard depression can hit in an instant. Please stop and think before you put your two sense into others’ business because chances are you don’t know a damn thing about the situation.

I try so hard to provide a positive blog and outlook on life, but the truth is, it is okay to be broken. It is okay to break sometimes. I feel like I have lost control of my life, but I am not sweating it.  I am a couple days behind on my workout challenge, but I am not sweating it. I have a pile of homework that could make or break my grades that I haven’t started, but I am not sweating it. I haven’t ate anything in almost twenty-four hours, but I am not sweating it. I keep wearing dirty clothes to work, but I am not sweating it. I keep sleeping in my dirty work clothes, but I am not sweating it. I keep forgetting to shower and take care of myself, but I am not sweating it. I haven’t put make up on in days and barely brush my hair, but i am not sweating it. I haven’t cried so hard in a very long time, but I am not sweating it. I have not felt this depressed in months, but I am not sweating it. I almost had a panic attack tonight, but I am not sweating it. I have no support system for recovery or friendships in general, but I am not sweating it. I may be weaker than I’ve been in a while right now, but I am not sweating it. This too, shall pass, so I am not sweating it. I am not defeated yet, so I am NOT sweating it.